Does anyone really want there lives to be better? Or, as Agent Smith, from the Matrix, points out... We are programed to equate and express our lifeline through our experiences of misery.
Well, the Hell with that!
I am going to reboot my system and live in the knowledge of the blessing it is to experience life at all... I spent most of my life, struggling, with the dark forces of this life. God knows I have served sentences of sequestered existence. And as I walk back into my vocational world tomorrow, I will walk forward with the childlike awe of life, combined with the power of my experiential gained insight, and ability to create.
I have no more time for drama... No more time for fear based feature presentations...
It is time to dance... To walk into the world with new eyes, with gratitude and love for all those I encounter. Of course I still have a job to do... I still have to make decisions that will be deemed unpopular at times. But how I unfold these events and approach those in my sight-line, will hold blessings for all involved.
When I moved to Central Oregon, my daughter started first grade... She is now reminding me that this is her last birthday at home. (College next year.) Which gives me a moment to pause and realize that everything I have done until this moment has paid off... Have I always felt joy? Not in the least... But we have all made it this far and for that I am grateful...
And so it is a time of joy, of celebration, of love. I will be spreading this throughout my life, and as I do... I don't care how many people think I am a kind person, because I know I am choosing to be real, choosing to believe I am supporting life, in moving forward, for all that walk upon this planet. I am humble enough to know that I may not change the outcome of the universe, but I did save a few lives along the way... And that my friend, is not a little thing.
In the movie, Nothing but the truth, Alan Alda's character said; "A good man can spend his whole life being kind and generous... and in the end, how many people show up to his funeral is usually still dependent on the weather."
I could care less how many people show up at mine when the time comes... I do care if the life I have lead made a difference to those I walked with upon this earth. I still have work to do and so to bed I go...
My blessings to you all and all those you hold dear...
